endings, and beginnings

pondering is fun.
i've spent hours, days now, going over things in my mind, things that have their own gravity and their own orbit within my orbit.  it's time to put things to right.
first of all, i'm not going to stop doing this.  this has been my lifeline in so many ways.  i see now the reasoning that people have for keeping a journal, for trying to discipline themselves to daily self-reflection and appraisal.  because days are so chaotic, time is so twisted and life is so insane, you can get lost, you can lose yourself if you don't keep track of yourself.  as much as things seem to be spinning right now, i can only see the spinning because i am on solid ground.  that is a revelation.  so, i have to say that this orbit...this phase of this orbit, is concluded.  no, i'm not at a goal weight.  no, i'm not off the pills yet.  no, i am not a famous author.  but i am sane.  i am sound.  i trust the contents of my mind.  i feel at peace with the Tim on the inside.  i trust my child's voice.  i am not going to suicide.  i have things to do, and they require a more sound documentation.  and...maybe the icing on the cake, i owe my God something and i have to try to pass some things on to some people that my experiences may be beneficial to.
therefore, the orbit began in september of last year, though shortened, is at its end.  it started on Blog.com, and it migrated to blogspot,com, but it is vital, it is a roadmap that i will treasure and use...

...as i begin the next phase, the next orbit, if you will.  more on that later.