this has been a hot and miserable day, a day that i am glad is over. conversely, i feel much better than i was earlier, and i am at odds to explain why. perhaps it will occur to me as i get this down.
this would be, by the way, the end of the end. the orbit has landed. tomorrow we'll take the gear we need for the next journey and get the new ship loaded. but for now, downtime and decompression.
i went to pick up Lonnie and family from the Cleveland airport today. i don't know what is wrong with me. his text said they'd be landing at 3:21, but i thought it all day today as 3:15. still six minutes only means something to Doug E Fresh. so i left here about one thirty or so, not knowing what traffic would be like. the road was not bad, though my GPS routed me on the turnpike as they always do. i made the trip pretty quickly, even tried to slow myself down when i realized there was no actual traffic to be early to navigate. i did what i always do when i'm visiting a place i'm not familiar with. i went where i would have to be, memorized my route to get there, then i left. it was blazing hot and my car has no ac. i went down a road that led right back to the terminal, stopped into a McDonalds, used their restroom and had lunch. i sat for a while, nursing a minute maid light lemonade, low cal. finally, i saw it was almost three and i made my way back to the airport. i circled the route and saw there were cars parked at the far end of a circuit that led around from the arrival gate and back. i texted Lonnie that i was there and just waiting for his word. that word was a very long time coming.
i'm still old school in so many ways, so it didn't dawn on me for awhile to see the airport website and discern if i could find a new arrival time. i couldn't get a number to call someone but i found the flight and it was scheduled to arrive almost an hour late. i was irritated, hot and sweaty. i went back into whatever the small town was and got a water from a gas station just as Lonnie was calling me. so back to the airport once again, i picked them up and we headed back to youngstown.
it was a long trip, two hours in Cleveland, at an airport with no parking, avoiding the roving security, hot as a motherfucker, running low on gas. Lonnie of course compensated me for gas and paid for the toll back. good friend. i was irritated at him when we started back, but i'll make that apology tomorrow.
then i went to see Rachel.
the summation is, i told her she has to decide what she wants to be in my life. otherwise, we can't really do anything because until she decides who she wants to be with me, she will continue to find ways to feel bad about feeling good. and i don't have enough energy to deal with that and to keep the project moving forward.
i am really sleepy now. got some other things i need to write about, but tomorrow if i'm alive is soon enough for that. for now, i had a day, i'm grateful for breath, i thank God for getting us home safely, and i'm gone now.
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