better sleep

it's six in the morning on Friday.  i didn't write yesterday, because i was cleaning and then i was sleeping.  but i will remark upon that day before i start on this one, though i've been up and have started the day with prayer.

yesterday started the same way.  i got to the gym, i enjoyed my workout.  i came home, had grits and two eggs.  i had nothing else on my agenda.  going to visit my parents was delayed as Deedy was there and i like to not be bothered with her when possible.  i did a lot of thinking.  a lot of it was Rachel but some of it was finances.  i checked my book stats several times, and though i stalled out again, i'm happy that i at least got more nominations than last time.  i don't have a conclusion yet, but you take the victories and don't sneer at the size of them because all losses seem monumental.
i watched television, i ate pastillilos for lunch and had burritos for dinner (Taco Bell, small variant) and i got my living room and kitchen straight and bathroom clean and floors mopped and vacuumed.  i watched some anime and an old Chavez/Camacho fight.  i set coffee pot which is even now tormenting me with its rich smell and i went to bed.
i went by Rachel's in the hottest part of the day as she offered me a pot of hamhocks and beans.  i didn't talk with her much.  i talked with her in the evening, and she is very scattered.  i am always amazed that she even bothers.  i know she's going through some heavy changes.  i know her restlessness isn't just from medication.  but she manages to keep me in her thoughts.  i did not throw her under the bus this time, i just miss hanging out with her.  perhaps i'll go visit today, depending on the heat.
i slept pretty well, all lights off, fan on high.  it's over seventy degrees already.  gonna be a miserable day, in which i am alive to be miserable.  blessings.  thank you Father.  today's entry will take place tonight.