preparation

it's evening.  quarter to seven at the moment.  i've had a day.  some productivity, some pain.  some planning for the coming week.  some just chilling, trying to get some sort of momentary relief from the ongoing issue.  but a day, under any definition.

as i said, i didn't sleep all that well, and i have to get it moving tomorrow, should i be blessed with another day.  i have a doctor's appointment in the morning, my meeting in the afternoon, Lonnie asked if I'll ride to PA with him to exchange rentals after my meeting.  i just took the turkey from the freezer and put it in the fridge to slow thaw until Saturday, probably.  then i'm going to put it into a brine for 24 hours, seal it in my stock pot for a flavored braise and have it ready for Monday coming.  it's going to be the last hurrah.  i feel it.  like quitting smoking, i'm on the edge of the decision that's already been made.  change has to happen.  this pain and unproductiveness is unacceptable.  and nothing is going to change if i don't change anything.

spiritual balance demands that something has to be sacrificed in order to gain something.  there has to at least be the honest willingness to sacrifice something.  because if i'm not willing to let go, why should God give me something in exchange?  that just makes sense to me.  but so many people can't really see it.  the season is in the process of driving folks crazy, like it does every year.  people driving like assholes, acting like idiots and treating each other like scum.  but 'tis the season, right?

i am upstairs.  i'm going to try to do a little writing, get a shower in and get some clothes ready for tomorrow.  i'm very grateful to Jehovah, as this has been a day where some things have gotten done.