Continuity

i fought it off as long as i could.  thought i was doing a pretty good job of it too.  but it caught me after  Thanksgiving, and Friday i was in misery.  that's why i didn't write.  early in the day it had began.  there is something to using Tylenol to control the pain, but it has to be every single day apparently.  miss a day, it's like not having the door guarded on a particular day and the thieves are always watching.  the pain takes advantage. 

there was no horrific beginning.  i got up yesterday with all the normal ritual; prayer, readings, medicines, coffee and water.  i decided i'd fix breakfast for De'ja and myself ( he did make in in, btw), and so i made a frittata and some toasted buns.  he had slept on the couch and I'd sent him upstairs to the bed, so i ate alone and got things a bit tidied and tried to take some of the heavier stuff to push this pain back.  but the hydrocodone doesn't really do shit with this kind of pain.  i spent most of the rest of the day in bed.  De'ja left to go to his grandparent's, to see a cousin and eventually to visit his sister.  i was down for the day.  i will probably be down for the day today also, but i have to get some stuff done. 

thing that's sucks so much about this is, when it flares, there is no 'comfortable' position to get into.  you find a spot where the pain is minimal, and you try not to move, and that is not restful at all, because you're on full alert the entire time.  in the evening, Lonnie brought me a loaf of bread i'd asked for, and i decided i had to get some other things done.  so i struggled from my bed, went to the kitchen, made a turkey sandwich, took more meds that would address the coming gout flare and some of the nerve flaring that comes with this, and so i could sleep.  when De'ja came back, he got me some ice water and a cup of Thera-flu (i'd been shaking with chills and fever the entire day also), i saw him out the door and i went back to sleep.  i'd woke up several times, but i'm just recently out of the bed.  i have to get my stuff done, because i don't have any energy to spare.  but i wanted to take time to update this.  sorry about yesterday..