heavy fuel

i've medicated the fuck out of myself this evening.  thanks to my friend, Lonnie, who is conscientious to a fault, brought me Thera-flu and tea, and i've had both, and a Tylenol, and Gabapentin as i keep getting this burning stinging in my feet.  my hands keep going numb, and i'm expecting a flare of gout.  but for now, going to put on some meditative shit, shut it all the way down and re-assess in the morning.  all i can do.  Thank you, Father, for friends who care.  good friends need not be plentiful, and plentiful friends aren't always good.  good night.