there's a principle, a primary one in physics, like commonly known and accepted, i guess i mean, which states two physical bodies cannot occupy the exact same space at the exact same time. i can dig it. until molecular destabilization without loss of life becomes a reality, that is a physical fact.
but it's also a fact that two spirits cannot occupy the same space at the same time. all the little cartoon representations of the angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other are just another faerie tale for children to have instant morality...just add water. truth is, a person is, or they are not. they are doing one thing, or they are doing another. and by doing nothing, they are still doing something. there is no such thing as an empty flesh vessel. so it's important for a person to know not only what spirits they are in commune with...but what spirits are truthfully hearing and responding to their prayers.
i woke with prayer today, on my knees. it was a simple prayer today, but i wasn't feeling very energetic, to be honest. when school is out for the year the discipline has to kick into a higher gear, because if i have no reason to be up i'd rather be asleep. but i got up. even got into my gym clothes. but i didn't go to the gym.
i checked the Old Lazarus video again, and put myself into a debate as to whether i want to redo it or not. the watermark from the video editor app lasts a minute on a three minute video, but it's not really a detraction. it's just a slight inconsistency. i have to meditate on it some more.
i had breakfast, a sausage and egg sandwich. i took my meds, my insulin, and i went back and laid down. i just wasn't feeling any energy early. R called and i spoke to her and finally i got moving. i checked the Cavalier, and it wouldn't start though the interior lights were coming on. I texted my brother for a jump and i got dressed and got the grass cut. i finished in less than an hour and a half, except for the hill, which i left for Syd and Jo to do. i came in, took a shower, my brother came and jumped the Cavalier, which i moved to the front of the driveway. it wouldn't start again, but it's where i want it and i know i just have to clean the terminals. i talked to R again, who is trying to get here for lunch, and i went and made a salad and cleaned the dishes. that's where my day is at right now.
what does any of that have to do with any damn thing?
well, here's the deal. i didn't want to do a thing today. and yet, i wanted to do everything, get everything done. i don't do moderation well. but it's necessary, if i am going to continue to grow. so instead of trying to clean my whole house, i cut the grass, which was necessary. i got sun, exercise and now i can legitimately rest. if R makes it through, we'll order some wings to go with our salad. if not, i will have salad with my dinner tonight. all things in moderation, right?
more later.
the day ends. R came by for lunch, which was nice. i'm happier with the video than i was previously, so i think i'm going to use it. i am tired, but i feel good. i'm hitting the gym tomorrow, so i can finish the week strong. i am not worried about much of anything, because in truth i have everything i need. that's always a good feeling. and tomorrow is its own day, with its own peaks and it's own pitfalls. no point worrying on them today. thank you Jehovah, and good night.
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