blah-day

i decided to take a break from the gym today.  my shoulder is hurting quite a bit, and i figured to rest it and just take care of some business.  i've been to the stores for supplies, paid my rent and have to pay bills this afternoon.  i've got Syd's phone paid and i still have to take care of the utilities, my meds and a few other things.  so its a pretty normal third of the month.  i may go for a walk this evening, depending on the temperature.  i know i strained my shoulder yesterday working on weights, but i'm going to live.  i have to remember that i can't do what i want to do all the time; sometimes i have to settle for just doing what i can.
i feel listless, like i want to be into something.  my mind is working well with my muse as far as the book goes, but i can't sit still for long stretches.  i don't know what it is, but i have the feeling something is heading toward me.  i want to make sure i'm ready for it, whatever it is.
got to lunch with Lonnie today.  not a big deal, just time to hang out, eat some burritos and conversate.  don't get to do enough of that lately.  planted more mental seeds with Syd today.  i can only work this a bit at a time.  prepping the soil for the planting, planting carefully, but only God can make the fruit grow.  day labor plants the seeds, the Creator does the power work.
i got the big three bills paid, and i got my meds ordered.  got everything but dish cloths on my list, didn't see them at Big Lots.  got to deal with this j&fs issue tomorrow, get my crib cleaned and try to relax over the weekend.  gym in the a.m., counseling at 9, and back to it.  maybe i'll get to hang out with R this weekend.  that would be supernice.  i don't know.  i'm feeling the changes, but its feeling pretty good this time.  i guess in its own way that's the scary part.  but i'm not scared.  go figure.
nothing special.  blah kind of day.  first real snowfall this winter.  i love the mindset of people.  there will be a first snowfall of winter and a first snowfall of 2016, as if one is not inclusive of the other.  we are getting dumber and its by design.  oh, well, not tonight.  good night, thank you Father, and peace in the world around me i pray.