Vibologism in the 3rd Dimension, or the process begins...

well, it's been about a month now.  i don't know if i will ever actually 'get over' this woman not being in my world, but i am surviving, and i'm certain the healing is taking place.  there are spiritual ramifications that i have to consider, things that are developing that do make it seem as if i am being directed.  i can't help but wish Rachel was a part of that, but i also can't dictate to God what His will is for me.  so part of it is a 'wait and see', and part of it is a leap of faith. either way, i'm on it.

i am doing this early because it's been sort of hit and miss lately.  not intentional.  too many things that i have to hit a reset on, too many things that i've been struggling to get started again.  i have to get back to some kind of exercise routine, have to get back to working on the company, have to get back to writing.  it's almost like i put Rachel in the position of a linchpin, and when i pulled her out of my life it all just sort of fell apart.  but that's not quite fair either.  i haven't been doing many of those things because i've been working.  and i'm going to continue to work, because i have to get things done that have to get done.  but once that's accomplished, i'll have the foundation i require to move on, and that's what this is all for.  so, i can see the hand of my Creator in all this, and i am grateful as can be.  but it has to be effort on my part to keep the blessing moving.  God will do for me what i canNOT do for myself, not what i'm unwilling to put effort into.

so i'm up.  i've been looking toward tomorrow with some excitement.  i just finished talking to an old friend, B, who is pretty well plugged in. he will come by tomorrow and may be able to facilitate this thing getting done more quickly.  but i'm going to get started regardless, as 'way leads on to way'.  i'm going to grab cleaning stuff on my way to work, and i'm going to keep them in my car.  should i be blessed with life in the AM, i'm going to go to the east side and start working on the 2nd floor, clearing things out, getting downstairs what is going to be removed and moving back what can be moved back.  going to have to clean as i go, as i did set off bombs in the place.  but we'll see what's what.  i'm taking pictures of the before, as much as i can, so that i can do comparisons afterward, so those will be posted as i move through.  it's going to be an adventure, and i'm excited to get into it.

thank you, Jehovah, for the resources and the blessing.  more later.