deliverance

i don't remember if i wrote yesterday or not.  i feel like i did, but i kinda feel like i forgot to.  well, under any circumstances, i'm writing today.

i'm already in bed, its early but that's nothing new.  i am not trying to stay up, for what?  it's freezing, i have nothing in the house that i'm planning on doing and i have to get it together to get to the gym in the morning, and it's going to be cold as fuck.

i got up later today as it was my off day from the gym.  i was doing stuff online, nothing serious, just fucking around after prayer and checking my blood sugar.  it was 104, which wasn't bad at all. once Syd went to school i had breakfast, took insulin and meds and started working on getting me out the door.  Lonnie called and i listened to him for a while and talked a bit.  his dad is doing rough, and he keeps plugging away but it's very rough on him.  Mike would be a good person to actually reach out to him.  i say that as Mike lost both of his parents and has experience with this that I don't.  but Mike is somewhere else these days.  i wish i could help Lonnie.  anyway, i ran a bath, got cleaned up, had time for a chill before i left to pick up Harry, who called for a ride to the meeting.

it was a small meeting, and there were several stone crazy people there.  but it was a meeting that happened and the doors were open and that's the important thing.  i went home after that, caught Rachel on the phone as i was on my way.  we talked briefly.  she was just getting up and was getting in gear for counseling.  when i got home i had lunch and got back to work on a piece that i was working on in the morning.  did the drum track in the bath and laid harmony but scrapped it before the meeting.  after the meeting it came together the way i wanted it to.

i made spaghetti for Syd, and i had salmon croquettes and a small bowl of the spaghetti and some salad for dinner.  i finished the mix and rendered the tracks to an MP3, and i'll use it for an ad this week, once i figure what visuals it needs.  i watched some tv, and that brings me back to being in bed.

the books came in today, HUZZAH!  i'm glad about that, but the cold is muting my exuberance.  i will start getting them out, and that means i have to get the accouterments finalized as well, the bookmarks and the poetry.  but this is the start of Z-Phyles, official-like.  and i can't help but be very grateful.  it's going to work out, i have faith and i trust God and the process.