upswinging

well, today was a much better day, though i'm not going to dance and sing about it.  i got some things done, and mostly i've had to blow my nose throughout the day, which was the worst of it, but for now, i'll take that over being weak, feeling woozy, achy and feverish.
got up early, seems to be happening a lot lately.  said my prayers and sat on the bed, debating.  then toti said 'fuck this noise, get your ass up', so we got up and got it moving toward the gym.  did a half hour on the treadmill which was all i had in me but it was much better than nothing.  came home, got Syd to her bus and then took meds, insulin and breakfast, two boiled eggs and a piece of toast.  was planning a big dinner so adjusted early.  i laid about for a bit, then i went to the store.  got stuff for my dinner and came home.  started to prep and listen to music, feeling pretty good.  new phone came in, so i worked on trying not to confuse myself too badly while i tried doing the activation, and i slowly got dinner together.  TF was going to bring resources for another soup for herself and her family but things aren't going well with her mom and that, i'm sure, takes precedence.  i got everything done but the chicken and then i napped briefly.  i got up, talked to Lonnie for a bit, got dinner finished and ate.  i cleaned the living room and I"ll do my bedroom and the bath tomorrow before counseling.  i intend to hit the gym in the a.m.

i am tired, and i'm still blowing my nose, but i feel about sixty-nine percent better.  i am glad that i've learned enough to just stop when its time to stop.  when i was younger i considered it a challenge to be able to keep it moving despite being sick, but nowadays when my body says 'rest', i tend to just yawn, roll over and comply.  now i got to find somewhere to drop off these dinner carbs, as i don't intend to continue eating on mac & cheese and dressing all weekend.  but it was damn tasty.  just an affectation, celebrating a day alive, and nothing more.  Thank you, Jehovah, for the blessing of breath today.