...Serendipity...

i'm hurting tonight.  pain is strange.  it comes, and you learn to expect it as time goes on.  it does not disappoint, perhaps the one expectation that absolutely does not.  for true pain delivered when expected is exactly what it purports to be, and should it not show up, there is no disappointment in it's absence.  there is only relief, and a resetting of the time clock.

today was not an exceptional day.  i got up on time, got my prayer done, didn't eat breakfast, had coffee and took my medicine and did my readings.  i got dressed and i went to work.  that's all the eventful the morning was.  the run went as well as it could, with a bit of an exception being a motorized wheelchair stopped working and the workers at the shop didn't want to just switch it to manual and physically push it off the lift so we could get on with the day.  but that was about it.  the weekly meeting was full of deceptive half-truths, and i went to my parent's house.  i was already hurting, ankles and knees, and therefore bypassed the gym. 

the end of the day was not much different.  did pick ups early, got everyone home on time, tried a couple new turns not on my directions, got back in at the normal (new) time.  i stopped at the store for a couple things, really hurting by that time.  i got home, washed a load of clothes, made my dinner, fucked around on the computer, put the clothes in the dryer. kitchen is cleaned, i'm pretty much ready for bed now.

two things, maybe three.  first one is, the old gentleman who aides on the bus i'm subbing on, he refuses to learn anything more about the job, the position or the requirements.  i tried to show him about signing off on the IsP books, as i was shown and told by the bosses, and he refused to do it.  got no issue with that, because i still believe (despite their bullshit) that the local offices are heading toward an ending soon.  second thing, the Boss was late today.  and she seemed to be on a different route but i can't say that for certain.  i texted her this evening, checking up on her, and got her usual brief response which is mostly just irritating but it is not surprising.  i'll keep an eye on her.

third thing is, my eldest brother is in town.  he got in this afternoon while i was at my mother's house.  i talked a bit to him, then i went back to work.  that's the deal with the Serendipity as the title.  i have been thinking that i need to make peace with him. not that i feel i did anything wrong to him, but more to the focus of wanting to not die outside the temple, so to speak.  but i've not put much effort into enacting that thought.  now, 'coincidentally, he is in town.  and now, i have to put action behind talk.  and i have to pray for willingness and pray for guidance because this is not going to be any kind of easy. 

but what worthwhile thing ever truly is?

thank you, Father.