weary still

...a rough night is coming to an end.  i don't know why sleep was so hard this past night.  i couldn't get under, i couldn't still my mind.  i didn't want to use the binaural beats meditation music because i didn't want to wake rough, and i've slept rough instead. not a good trade-off.
i got up yesterday and prayed and did stretches and crunches and readings and went to the gym and lifted on the machines.  i had to take Syd to school, and while i was by Kent State i went to the walmart out that way and to dollar general and got most of the last of our supplies.  big lots, not walmart, sorry.  then i came back to youngstown, went to sav-a-lot and walmart and finished up.  i cleaned and stemmed collard greens and got them on.  i'd talked to Lonnie thru the day to hear that his father is not doing very well at all, and that makes me sad for both Lonnie and his father.  his dad is one of the last of the 'mystical old men', as we used to call them.  and Lonnie has so much already on his plate.
i got a call from the Director of Development from the public library, who told me of a book signing the Poland library does in the winter and the summer.  but it happens this thursday and i would not be ready at all.  so i'll have to get it moving for June.
i have macaroni boiled and cheese shredded and i ate dinner.  my sugar was 112 when i got in from the gym yesterday.
no gym today.  i've prayed, turned the day over, and i read my meditations.  i have this anniversary meeting, and i'm not going to expend my energy anywhere but there.  as i don't have a ton of it to begin with today.  but i prayed for strength and i'm sure it has been made available to me.  i'm about to get my coffee on and get my mac n cheese into the oven.  it will be a positive day.  thank you, Father.