putting in work

...it's friday morning.  i missed logging yesterday because i was exhausted emotionally and mentally.  but i still should have taken the time to put something down.  discipline, for me, is working without excuses.  when i make excuses, i am being undisciplined and the sacrifice becomes negotiable.  and that's not going to happen.

so, it's friday morning.  yesterday i got up, said prayers, stretched, got in gym clothes, read meditation books and scripture, had coffee and went to the gym and did weights.  i came home, got my meds and insulin in me and headed out to pay my rent.  i paid the full amount, talked with the landlord for a few and ran back home briefly.  i took Lonnie a container of corned beef and cabbage, went to Big Lots in Boardman and headed to Dr Derosa's for my appointment.  my numbers were very good, though they felt 138/85 was high for blood pressure.  but i can live with that.  my sugar was 110 at the doctor's office, A1C was 6.3, down from 6.4 last time, and my weight is down about six pounds.  i went to visit my sponsor afterward as he lives around the corner from Derosa's office.  i got an old computer and printer from the wife, got a 4-digit number from my sponsor to play for him and made my way to Struthers.  i saw Rachel for a bit, talked with her.  she's hurting from the casino thing, but that was bound to happen.  i took her to get something for her to eat and dropped her back home.

i got in and fairly passed out.  i had worked the weights pretty hard and was exhausted.  i didn't sleep much but it was good to be lazy.  i eventually got up, got stuff put away from Big Lots, got back to work on editing Old Lazarus and had dinner.  i made some chicken and rice for Syd, a one pot thing, and then i put it down for the night.

so far today, it's rough.  i didn't want to move this morning, but i forced myself to.  i got up slow in thought and action, but i got prayers done, got dressed after stretching, got coffee and water and made it to the gym.  i put on a guided imagery video for my meditation today while i was on the treadmill.  glad the gym has their own wifi now.  i came home, started working on Lazarus, had breakfast after Syd left and am about to get ready for counseling.  think i'm going to try to have lunch with my dad today.  that's all i have for now, i'm sure i'll get back to this later.  oh, blood sugar 135 before insulin today.