i didn't hit the gym today, and my knee trying its best to take me down is a good reason, but it's not THE reason. i didn't go because i was having some blues since last night, and i didn't deal well with them. but considering my normal depression levels, i'm doing much better than i have historically. i prayed, i read from scripture and meditation books. i got Syd out the door, i got Mechanical Jesus submitted and i got the new cover for Old Lazarus uploaded. i went to counseling. it was a good session but it had some sadness as it started with someone dying and it ended with a three week hiatus between today and my next session. but my counselor, knowing i have a sober anniversary coming up (it's so nice to be remembered) gave me a bag of Peet's Coffee, which is an excellent coffee,and i'm very touched and moved by the gift.
i came home and i sort of laid around, the blues still lingering. my brother came before i got good and settled and i visited with him for a bit. i had plans to clean but i put it off for quite a while. i had lunch, which was so uneventful i can't remember what it was, and eventually i got up and started cleaning. i got my bed made. i talked to Rachel, and she's having some heavy blues as well, financial woes. i have to get this company up and going. i know the blessing is waiting for me. i have the kitchen cleaned now, i have the bathroom cleaned and my bedroom is about as done as it needs to be. i have to find the invitation to Bob's daughter's wedding. i have to finish my living room and get things as ready for thursday as i can. and i have to remember to remain grateful, because Jehovah has blessed me to the extent that i am able to appreciate what he has done for me, which can either be severely limited or abundantly limitless. i think i'm going to be okay.
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