damn, this has been an up-and-down day. i didn't know i even posted anything yesterday, that's how much i've been missing in action lately. i guess i'm feeling some apprehension about the coming things, but on with that in a few. it's late, i'm sleepy, but i want to get this in and down before i'm out.
today i got up and had prayer, meds and breakfast. i had eggs and bacon and grits, traditional black american sunday morning breakfast. i got dishes done, had some coffee and got myself geared up to do the lawn.
that was contentious. i didn't feel up to it, and the humidity has been rising again and taking the steam right out of me. but asking Syd to do it brought about the usual drama, and rather than wait for the storm which would have left the grass higher and messier, i went out and cut it. and it was rough going. i had to stop several times. heart rate way up, breathing labored, pouring sweat. just the thickness of the air. but i got it done. then i took a shower, got dressed, gathered things i needed and went to my meeting.
the story in the big book today was one that i really love, because it's almost an exact replica of my own story. and the meeting was small but it was decent. i went home after, but i stopped at taco bell for cheap eats lunch. still have five days before my money comes and goes again.
so i talked to Rachel, and i talked to TP, whom i'd not spoken to in some time. she called me and i called her back and told her i have been not feeling communicative due to my impoverished finances, which isn't exactly true but it was good enough i just haven't felt like speaking to someone whose life is usually drama-filled, and i don't feel bad about leaving that in hiatus. i also got texts from Tracy this evening, to the same extent. so something is changing in the atmosphere.
i decided on sausage, cabbage and potatoes pan-fried with onions, peppers, apple and pear slices. very nice. very comfort foody. i cleaned the kitchen again, worked on my song and i tried to watch a movie Rachel gave me to watch but it wouldn't play in the DVD. i'll try it on the laptop tomorrow.
Tuesday i'm going to City Printing to see about getting a price for printing. The Book of Old Lazarus is going to be the first, and i'm going to get it printed under my own imprint. i will know more from that point the direction i want to proceed with other authors. i'm very excited, and ery nervous. i've never been at this point in my life before, of really being on the verge of hitting next level because of conscious decisions and actions i've taken myself. i am going to do it, and i'm going to get a run of Old Lazarus printed. i've got Lonnie son Joshua coming by Tuesday evening to film for a new advert for Evolon, and i'm going to get some footage for Old Lazarus with my brother again. things are coming along. and i am blessed and will not overlook that at all. it would be so easy and so dumb to start tooting my own horn, but if i am doing good things it is because Jehovah is providing me with good spirit to do them with, and i give full credit to Him for anything that blossoms from this. i'm going to sleep now, if i can get under it all.
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