gotta push on

it's been a long, hot weekend.  and it's time to get busy. fuck the humidity, i can't keep laying back, when my entire life is right ahead of me.

let's start from friday.  i was at home, and i should have been cleaning, but i was as lazy as i could be, and i didn't get much done.  i got the greens cleaned, did them in the bathtub after i cleaned it out and i got them into the pot.  i worked on them until they were as good as i was able to get them and i went to bed after everything was turned off.  

saturday, i got up with prayer, i got my meds and insulin, i went and bought myself some taco bell breakfast because i didn't have space in the kitchen plus i was feeling lazy.  i got my house cleaned, talked to my dad about helping him put dirt down in the yard, though that never materialized because while he may be inclined toward doing unnecessary things in the hot humid sunlight, i am not.  but i felt kind of bad because i said i would and i also told him i'd be a minute getting there and he did what i figured he would; he got it done.  

i went to Rachel's uncle's house for his birthday party that Rachel did all the work for.  it was nice enough but i was put off because i listened to both her mother and her uncle act as if one didn't plan it and mandate Rachel into doing all the work and the other was very ungrateful to someone for doing a birthday party for him.  and Rachel was exhausted.  i took her to give her mother's car back, bought her an icee from burger king, i helped her bring the food out and set the table for people to get plates.  i covered the food while she was picking up her daughter because her son didn't.  i met her grandmother, talked to a few people, couple i'd just met, i left after about three hours, i ate and had a decent time and i came home, drained and beat up, after i stopped at sav-a-lot to get bags of collards to fill out my greens order for the next day.  i rested, ate some dinner and went to bed, slept like a fucking brick.

today, i got up with prayer, had breakfast, worked on an entire song and commercial for the release of The Land Of Evolon, which i'm going to list today.  i seasoned up the greens and let them simmer to blend in the fresh seasoning, and i got them gathered up and went to the club.  helped the guys get things set up, we had a good turn out, a good amount of food, and both raffles went well.  the meeting was just open discussion and it went okay too.  lot of food left, i gave my parents a lot of what i brought home, only bringing enough for me for dinner tonight.  i talked to Rachel a couple times, talked to Lonnie once, talked to my brother once.  i am going to the gym in the morning, going to get Syd's school stuff ordered and her fees paid, get my phone paid and my payment to Paypal.  i feel good but i am tired, but that don't matter.  i can't keep waiting on the weather to get shit done, because the weather changes but my goals do not.  so, i thank Jehovah God for permitting me this day, this progress, these goals and the love that is available to me, and i'm done.