guess it has been a few, hasn't it?
well, i'm trying to put me back on track. this is going to be a day of involvement, probably the best way i can put it.
i got up this morning, said a prayer and got to the gym after i made my mom coffee. i did weights today, figure it's warm enough i can walk whenever i feel like. i came home and got coffee and water, took insulin and meds, got breakfast, and started working toward going to this interview. the interview went well enough, we'll see if we get the callback or not. i have to put in more applications, get myself some bills paid, which i did pay and schedule my electric and gas for shut off, and i have to figure what i'm cooking for dinner today.
i've been trying to get Syd's family rallied around the notion of a low-level intervention. Syd is in another city, not far but nowhere she knows anyone. she's still pretty much living like she believes someone is coming to take care of her. i hate to abuse her of that notion, but it's not going to happen. however, everyone has a right to fuck up, to fail even, if they choose to.
i don't know how many will reach out, but i'm putting all the lines in the water that i can, lines connected to her. if something nibbles and she bites, that's good for her. if she doesn't, then i can't do one more thin than i'm doing, or that i've done.
i don't know what comes next. but the gym was a good thing. and yesterday wasn't a bad day. and i'm grateful again, which works very well for me.
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