irritability, aloneness and caution

this has been a strange sort of day.  i have to start at the night before and move through, because this is kind of linked together for me now.
i got a text from Rachel yesterday evening, before dark, asking if i could take her to St. E's.  i asked no questions, just said i was on my way. figured whatever i needed to find out, if i was picking her up, it wasn't a dire emergency, and if she wanted me to know what was going on she'd tell me.  so, i was getting ready and she called and said her friend wanted her to sit with her while she waited to be admitted to the mental health floor, and i told no problem.  so i went and got Rachel and started for the northside when she got a text and asked me if i could take her to get the girls bag.  we went to the girl's house, got her bag which was stashed on the front seat, and were on our way again, when another text came and Rachel asked where Crandall park is, because that's where her friend was.
at the park, the friend was drinking, smoking weed, on a manic/depressive jag, talking disjointedly, obviously depressed but not really speaking with any willingness for change.  i got out to help if i could, but she was just talking and going to the hospital.  she wouldn't let Rachel take the keys to drive her and was all over the road.  fortunately (blessing) we got there safely and quickly.
inside the ER she got seen rather quickly and then after an hour or so Rachel went to check on her and i went home as i was exhausted.
when i got up this morning, i said my prayers and got coffee started.  actually, that's not true.  when i got up this morning, it was to a call from my dad.  he'd called about an hour earlier, but as i was exhausted coming in the house, i dropped my phone, reassembled it and it didn't turn it back on, just stuck it on a charger and went to sleep.  so i got the call to plunge my mother's toilet which i did.  then i came back home and had breakfast, an omelet and sausage, and i went back to sleep to be awakened by my mother to thank me for unclogging the toilet.  then i got another call from my dad asking if i could 'google' my aunt for information about how to watch her commencement ceremony for her college graduation in chicago.  feeling irritable now, i said no, i can't google her, and i went back to sleep.  then my mother called, asking why the mcafee kept popping up and what to do about it so they could watch the commencement.  so i went back over, got the site pulled up, waited until it was time and then put it on for them while i went to mill creek park to get away.  i wanted to write, but it was blazing hot, so i just sat in the sun and got some vitamin D.  been a long time since i was just in the park.  i left and came home, talked to Rachel on my way home, i got in, jumped into the tub and laid it down for a bit.  finally Rachel called and asked if i wanted her to come over to work om some stuff.  i went and picked her up, and we did some recording and i made us some dinner and then i took her home. Syd came by with a t-shirt for me and my brother came, troubled by our mother for some reason.  i stopped at Lonnie's house before i left the Campbell-Struthers area, sat and talked with him for a while and then came home, where i worked on Rachel's track, got it finished and mixed, sent her a copy via facebook and am now in bed.
hadn't been in mill creek for a long while, hadn't been to Lonnie's hosue in a long while.  but i'm tired of being in this apartment right now.  i have things to get done and things to work on, but i am sick of the sight of these walls.  but i have to be careful.  i ahve to separate my aloneness from any genuine loneliness i might be feeling.  because there's too much self-pity going around these days, and i really don't want to get caught up in it.  okay, thank you Father, for a beautiful day.