deep space

neglectful last few days.  i'm sorry.  it's been going okay, and i've been busy. beginning of the month is like that.  i have to get regulated again, though.  can't become untethered, i'm deeper into this orbit and i'm hitting some real unknown space.

i got up and got it started today, which was good.  i did get to the gym, i did weights and i went to walmart and got a few things for a wedding soup.  i had paid the major bills last night, so i was waiting to see when the rest came out and what i was working with for the rest of the month.

i came home and took meds and had a pancake and a sausage for breakfast.  washed dishes, started slow working on soup.  i talked to R, to my mom, i ordered clothes, got Old Lazarus up and in consideration for the Kindle Scout campaign and i took a bath and groomed.  i hung out and then i went to an eye appointment.  i had a chicken sandwich and a diet coke from BK for lunch.

eye exam went well, no diabetes in my eyes.  i went to visit my sponsor after as he lives right around the corner from my ophthalmologist. i hung there for about an hour and a half and then i made my way home.  i talked to Syd about her lack of participation for the umpteenth but, for certain, the last time, and i made myself a burger and had some wedding soup for dinner.  i have been in my room, talking to R, thinking on what comes next for she and i.

we're in good space right now.  the weekend went well, we've been talking and it feels sort of girlfriend/boyfriend-y, though i know that sounds weird.  i am pleased with where we are, and i don't feel either the need to go anywhere else or the need to find something augmentative in someone else.  i just want to see how deep this thing runs, and how far into it i can go before time runs out.

its raining now, so i guess i won't be cutting the grass tomorrow.  so i'm going to let this natural rain lull me to sleep and i'm going to thank Jehovah for a wonderful day, and say good night.