well.

this is me pointing at me accusingly, about me not logging the way i'm supposed to.  Bad Tim. 

not really a bad Tim, though.  just a tired Tim yesterday, to be sure. 

Wednesday started with exhaustion, but i know why.  i took a heavy duty cold medicine on Tuesday night, trying to stave off what feels like a bad cold (nose runny, head stuffy, etc) and i woke up groggy as fuck.  barely able to get it in gear.  but i did eventually.  had a bullshit breakfast, got out the door well enough but through the whole day i was nodding.  and i knew that's what it was, but when  you're driving to work and having to scream at yourself to wake yourself up, it can be a bit daunting. 

again, work was essentially like a dream, but i was aware enough to know i didn't do a bad job.  we didn't have one guy, again, and the day went fast enough.  i had already told my mother i wouldn't be by, and i almost didn't go to the meeting, but in the end i knew Lester (secretary) was in fact hurting, whereas i was theoretically and metaphorically hurting, and so i went.  good meeting, short and to the point. 

the day ended with more speed, due to some of our clients going home from the workshop early.  i was just as tired in the second runs as in the first, but a bit more aware.  i stuck with a plan; i came home and got my dinner finished (i'd started it between runs), and i ate and cleaned my dishes and fought with the notion of a shower and shave but shelved that and went to bed.  i slept the night through, and though i was up at 3:30 this morning, i feel better for the sleep and the lack of heavy duty medicine last night.  also, on Tuesday i pushed myself on the treadmill, and my legs are still hurting from that foolishness but i am still walking so there's that.

my plan is to hit the gym today, to help my mother get her new C-Pap machine put together, to have my lunch which is packed and not compromise with something else, to have a good day at work and to get ready for a productive weekend.  that is the plan, but what the execution is is to turn it over to Jehovah God, to maintain gratitude and take it one thing at a time.  and i am grateful, because i can see progress even now.  so, time to start the day.