Cruise Control

always something, when spring sort of sneaks in.  especially when winter shows an obvious reluctance to rest for its seasons.  but the easiest way to tell is the lengthening of the days.  regardless of the chill in the morning air and the gloom that sometimes hangs overhead like bad thoughts from high places, the day begins right after five in the morning and ends after 8 now, and it gets longer and longer.  its a good feeling, and it comes once a year and it leaves once a year as well.  but when it comes...man, there's practically nothing like it. 

today wasn't bad.  it wasn't the best of days, but it wasn't bad at all.  i'm not sure why the ambivalence.  it just seemed to be a day to get through, not one to enjoy nor one to bear up under either.  i got up early but was better rested without the drag of cold medicine recovery.  i didn't really eat breakfast, just nibbled on some chicken while i put my lunch together.  i did pray and read, and i did take my medicine.  i was at work on time and didn't stop as i'd planned to on the way.  the morning shift moved quickly, i went to my parent's house instead of to the gym and made them breakfast and ate my lunch and napped before going to finish the day.  the finish was fairly identical to the start, and i eventually came home.  maybe it's the 'eventually' that lends to my ambivalence.

TF had gotten in touch with me, and that usually means needing a favor anymore.  which usually entails me being inconvenienced to some extent.  that's not really something that i mind per se, but i definitely would like it if just once asking for something registered as an event that should happen as conveniently as possible.  but it rarely does.  in fact, it hasn't in so long it is almost as if it never did.  and it was mostly a waste of my time after work.  i had a situation at my parent's house that i was trying to streamline some of this stuff into that didn't happen and i had wanted to go to the store to get some things for the weekend, which also didn't happen.  and you just have to suck that shit up and breathe in and out and keep it moving, especially since the favor didn't even pan out due to the inconvenience.  BUT.  i'm not going to be able to accommodate it tomorrow, as i have a full roster in my work hours.  so, there you go.  but we'll see.  may God's will be done.

i am grateful for a day with few highs or lows, because a smooth cruise is always worth the relaxation it brings.  thank you, Father.