that is such a cool thing to be able to say.
not a clue as to how cool the rest of this will be, but it has to be put down.
i am going to start training, such as it is, to drive tomorrow. it is something that i said i would do, and i have a plan that this is a part of. so it's not unexpected, but it is going to change a lot of things.
so, the day started pretty normally. i'd done my thing in the evening, and i was ready for work when i woke up. but i took my time, i prayed, i ate and took my meds (though i completely forgot my water pill) and read scripture and meditations. i ate more responsibly and i did crunches and stretches and i dressed and gathered my things and i got to work early.
the run in the morning was as pleasant as ever. no trainee, no one but the Boss and i and the clients. a good morning, good laughter, good humor. at the break, i went to Austintown and took Syd to brunch and we talked and i took her home and went to my parent's house to visit and nap. i was tired, i was still sore from the gout flare and my body was still aching. i made my way back to work without eating anything else (significant) and i got in to find they were scrambling because 3 people had called off. i knew about one of them this morning, but i don't know how they anticipate anyone simply deciding not to call off if they're not feeling well. anyway, i made my way back out and finished the day and came in to be asked if i still was willing to train to drive. i clarified that i would, but that i wanted my main focus to remain as an aide, and i was assured that would be the case, that i would be a sub driver, but that is a lie. but these are all lies of a sort. they're not going to let me continue to aide, but i'm not going to remain in their employ for much longer than the training takes place, unless there are some radical changes.
regardless, i am at home now. i have written some poetry for my new book that i'm going to release in July. i have one more song to dance to, part of my routine when i don't get to the gym (along with the crunches and eating as i'm supposed to eat...put weight back on, not acceptable). i have to contact someone because i likely won't be at the meeting tomorrow. i have to reschedule my counseling on friday, as i will likely be training during the break that day. i'm not crazy about the whole 'hang out all through the day to train to do something like this' shit, but if i say something, it is my word and therefore i try to make it inviolable. that is my first time using that word in a writing session, i like it. 'inviolable'. anyway, i'm getting this done now because i've got trash to take out, poetry to write, got to resume editing on THE LAST RECOVERING MAN and get showered and shaved for work tomorrow. Moving on...
thank you, Father, and may this be your will for me, and may Your will be done, and if it not Your will, may i discern this and move on to Your will for me.
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